going to the doctor’s on saturday to get a lump under my jaw checked out.

well. it’s not really a lump, it feels more like my lymph node is swollen.

& I’ve convinced my self I have hodgkin’s disease because I can’t for the life of me figure out what would cause it to swell.

for the love of god. please be nothing.

please just be anxiety.

I’m on the verge of being terrified.